in the beginning, there was darkness

a darkness so potent and so deep

that there was no escaping

there was no air to breathe

it was suffocating

and lonely

how will I survive this?

can I survive this?

am I even alive at all?

what is living

if there's such a weight on my chest

that I cannot take

a single breath

but if i’m having these thoughts

and I can scream inside

what if it’s not my body

that needs to die

something else exists

something is here with me

these thoughts I’m having

this voice in the deep

“the beginning”

8/11/23